I'm so tired of being tired
We almost just gave in and turned it in for the night. After about 5 o’clock pm today, I just started dragging. My head wasn’t foggy like it has been, I was just tired. The energy I’d get from my naps wouldn’t last very long and while we were watching the Daily Show, my body took over and shut my eyes. Luckily, Erin noticed pretty quickly, and woke me up. But that just started all of the tired rationalizations about why this isn’t the right time for this, and how it really is best if I just concede that polyphasic sleeping is for the birds (literally).
We walked all the way to the line, I was in bed, teeth brushed and flossed, ready to turn out the lights. So badly wanting to turn out the lights. Then, I remembered how cool it would be if it worked; I could get all of those projects done that my monophasic self never has time for. And harmonizing with that thought, was the sound of all the skepticism people had toward this. Thinking of these things, I looked at my cell phone—11:36 pm. I only had 1 hour and 24 minutes until my next nap. That was nothing.
So, here I am, banking on the hope that tomorrow will be better—just like today was better than the day before.
